i want to find my truth...do you want to find your truth? i gotta start somewhere. we all do. i tell myself "just do it...start right here. right now." but i don't. i want to start clearing out the un-necessary and unhealthy from my life, and start doing the things i need to do and want to do. what exactly is the un-necessary and unhealthy? what are the things i need and want to do? for me it is as much mental as it is physical. it's financial, stop spending un-necessarily, and start paying off debt. it's unhealthy eating, stop eating anything that is not in it's original form. it's too much couch time, stop watching mind numbing television when i could be reading and learning with my son. it's not getting adequate rest, just getting in bed on time could do wonders for my mood. it's not exercising and telling myself i will do it tomorrow but then don't follow through, when i really need to lose some weight. it's too much stuff in my house weighing me down mentally, when i could just toss it or give it away to others who may need it more. it's having to deal with people who are not good for me, toxic negative people who make me feel bad. it's doing what everyone else thinks i should be doing, being practical is not all it's cracked up to be all the time. it's not spending enough time doing the things my little boy and i love to do together, making art and being free to do what comes creatively on the spur of the moment. it's letting time go by that can never be gotten back, nothing good was done with that time, usually procrastinated away with the television or computer. it's staying up so late at night that the next day i can't think straight, and don't have energy even to go for a walk after dinner. it's thinking there is more to life than i already have, when i am richer than i could ever imagine being, just by having those i love all of them healthy and happy. it's not having time for the simplest of things more often, more storybook teatime, and just plain being silly for the fun of it. it's believing what others think of me matters, when they probably aren't thinking of me at all. it's believing others are better than me, when we are all in the same boat. it's sacrificing my precious time to please those people, when they wouldn't do the same for me. it's taking all the blame when relationships change and the other person in the relationship lets me, when they are just as much to blame. it's not spending time with friends i cherish, because everyone is so busy...doing what? it's not spending enough quiet time with God, who made the ultimate sacrifice for me. it's not making sure to have time set aside for just my husband and i on a regular basis, even just to talk. it's not finishing anything i start, and being ashamed of myself for not finishing. it's not using my God given creativity to it's greatest potential, to use it for good, possibly helping in some way. it's all too much and it's like a merry go round that never stops. i have not even begun scratching the surface!
it is my aim, starting right here and right now, to rectify as many of these things as possible in the next year, starting today, April 26th, 2012.
what is going to be your truth a year from now? are you ready to do something about it?
- dreaming in the pit of reality by L.Dawn
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